To continue where we left off, last week I sent out my resume to a job placing agency not really thinking I would get a respond back from them due to past experiences. I was surprised when the next day I received a call and I went to the agency. It roughly took two hours to get through paperwork and safety test. I was placed right away with better pay then I have now and set hours along with benefits.
I have begun to realize what they said that you can’t solve a problem from the same mindset that created it. I am starting to understand that now since I took the plunge into something different that what I have been doing. I noticed those changes because I wanted to. I need to know there was something different than what I have been doing up to the point.
A friend from work left which really put things into a different light, how many people would I have to see leave before I decided to do what’s best from me? As everything that has come and gone since working at this job. I will miss those who I get along with but its times or rather past time that I do what’s best for me. Its time to experience new things.
I have been in a fog since last week even with the drug screening that I went to yesterday. I still can’t believe what has happened. Sometime ago I throw caution to the wind when I decided to join Mastering Alchemy Level 1. I didn’t even contemplated it when I joined Level 2 and Lightmaster 1800 last month.
With everything going on a few days ago and what I have done up to this point with the programs I have been involved in. Something got me thinking that I have been doing everything alone up to this point almost like I had to as if I would go down in martyrdom but I realized then that I was working under the belief of my family.
To received anything from the family I must sacrifice and struggle. Its not wrong or right, it just how my family saw things but now for its time for me to look towards my future with new eyes. Its time to let go of those beliefs from family and myself. More coming soon in the next post!
I have been doing some recycling I guess you can say with everything I have social media wise as well as what I want to do with them. I have been putting undo pressure on myself which caused me to burn out.
So I literally had to stop everything I was doing so that I can go within and see where I am going with all this. I really wanted to look into my joys. I can to this, I like working with my hands. I like getting dirty with it be with paint or the ingredients I am using to my either deodorant or lip balm.
Then as I was enjoying that revelation, then you have hurricane after hurricane hit. Now I am Puerto Rican, I had visited the island a few times in the past and see how bad it was. Just made me sad, not only that there were people still there.
But what go me was that there are people out there not really understand how bad it really was and wondering what Puerto Rico was mentioned a lot more then the other places that have been hit.
When it comes down to it everyone needs our help that have been hit by the hurricane, but Puerto Rico not only had been cut off from communication with the outside but also within the island itself. They can’t communicate with each other. I see how it affects my mom. Its upsetting to think that humanity has become insensitive to be asking such a thing on why Puerto Rico needs our help more then other places that have been hit.
Driving it take 2 days to get from one end to the other, while on the map. I can cover the island with my friend. Maria engulfed the island. Disaster is great that its too much for the people there, they are calling for help.
Now I am glad and grateful to see many people coming together despite where they come from, to help Puerto Rico but now only Puerto Rico but all place that was hit. The naysayer falling into the back ground, my family donated to a church for Puerto Rico where I live. Puerto Rico needs our help as do other places that have been hit.
Lin-Manuel Miranda’s Personal Plea for Puerto Rico Hurricane Relief
Just when you think you have things figure out, so I’ve to take a couple of steps back to re-evaluate certain things about why am I doing things and changing things up to do it because I want to to do not for the pay off that it could get me.
“If there’s a book that you want to read, but it hasn’t been written yet, then you must write it.” ― Toni Morrison
“Write the book you want to read, the one you cannot find.” ― Carol Shields
I have often wondered when watching videos and studying other home based business. What makes someone keep secrets to themselves? What makes someone share those secrets with others? For many people, we have been taught to share our things with others whether it be crayons or food. But you also must want to share with others. Begrudgingly sharing with someone doesn’t help anyone.
Now I understand that some people just don’t choose not to share which I am fine with but what got me thinking is that as a community, our success comes from a group structure. We thrive in groups because not everyone is going to want to be farmers or hunters or weavers. We build off of each other. We past what we have learned down to the next generation. It not merely the success of one but of all.
This thoughts have bounced around within me because I have studied other crafts whether its there shops or how they go about making things. I was watching this video, this person was making the lip balm only never gave the receipt and never said the receipt.
While others post their receipts below and said it in the video as they are making the product. I got two different impression, one was wanting to sell while the other wanted to give you the tools to success. Not only that they also voiced their mistakes to help prevent others to fall into the ditch they were in.
I even went as far as asking a craftier where they got there package, never to receive a reply from this person. Of course I am not saying you have to share, but for those who seek you out for your advice and interested in how you go about getting supplies and such. Why turn them away?
But this is just thought, for me sharing how I got here is hard for me to put words as my translating thoughts to words is a challenge. Its not that I don’t want to, it just that I don’t how to put into words how I got here. Maybe that why some people are unable to share things because they are not good at putting things into words.
Two weeks since the last time I posted anything here, I’ve had so many moments where I’ve had to withdraw from social media for a while so I can get my head screwed on right. I have been connecting with other people and each time I have been given advice whether it be directly or indirectly which has caused me to re-think about my actions all the way up to this point.
Which had lead me to re-think about publishing my poetry book and my social media outlets that I have. Anything that catches my interests like body lotion and butter along with color schemes. To what end who knows, I am merely following the bread crumbs. I am looking forward to see where this path will lead me and what I will learn about myself and those around me.
It was a success & failure at the same time. Success in the had I all the ingredients and containers to make them. I made four stick out of that batch. Two were given to co-worker as testers as well as offer feedback.
Failure in that the batch end up guppy and didn’t hard although I do live in the attic. It goes well past 76 degrees here and the bases for this batch is coconut oil.
I have been using one myself, I use a brush to apply to under my arms. It has kept my refreshed and I don’t fill the clogging of my pores like with store bought deodorants and I don’t have to worry about clumping either which is nice.
A couple things I have learned from this attempt is that for this recipe, I need jars instead of containers. I will give the customer the option of either liquid or solid deodorants. Ingredients used in this batch are: coconut oil, bentonite clay, shea butter, peppermint oil, arrowroot powder and baking soda. Looking to add beeswax and other butters to the blend as well as making a batch of lip balm.
This is a lot of trial and error but I am not really thinking about labeling and such at this point. I am more focusing on the combination of ingredients and making sure I have a solid batch for multiple uses.
This project is looking like it will be a year long to complete. Interested in supporting my work, please donate here.