I Have Been Thinking

I have been thinking about where I want to be and what I need to do to get there but I find myself on a Möbius strip twisted into a figure eight. I find something I want to do, I hit the middle point, where I research it only to come back to financial issue of the matter. I simply don’t have the means to do what I want to. So I keep that idea on the back burner only to have another bought to my attention and I go through it again, comes back to same thing.

After going through this process a couple of times, I had been sitting type up some notes for a story. Which got me thinking, I can’t be doing what I have been for six years for another six. I have a better idea of where I want to be but right now the obstacles in my path has been preventing from find that piece of the puzzle that would get me there and I don’t mean something physical rather emotional. A piece which has eluded me for sometime until I started to understand things differently.

I know I am not that far from discovering what that it only impatience and frustration has gotten in my way lately. More than usual yet I haven’t really had a moment to myself this madness began. I know the primary problem which prevents me from having a that time to myself but at the moment I am doing the responsible thing but my families financial situation isn’t the best either.

So I got support myself somehow, but I would much prefer to find that something that I will enjoying doing rather then dislike going to every day. Believe me I have looked every where for something like that. It either doesn’t exist or maybe I just don’t fit the model of common every day position anymore. Often times I think that I have to carve that position for myself rather waiting around for it to be created by someone else.

I have made the decision to take the road less traveled with its winds and twists. With it many turns it other direction. Who knows where this will lead me but its better than what I have been doing lately which has lead me to dead ends.

Some Thinking, Hmm

I admit it! I have been distracted lately with what hasn’t happened yet. Since I have committed to myself to doing my practices and follow my top priorities which are my loves. I took a moment just not to realized that I haven’t been doing my daily prompt. I know I crossed this bridge once before. I don’t want to like a dog chasing its own tail. *wink wink*

I realized a lot of this old stuff that keeps coming up for me comes from school years. If you didn’t have things done on time and finished, there would be repercussions for those actions. You don’t know how in-grain something is until you find yourself searching for a pencil when multiple pens around. That was me shortly after graduating high school.

I have been more in a penance mood, that a writing or reading mood. Shed some light on these areas of my life which have been left beneath cobweb and dust. Just cleaning things out you can as spring is just around the corner.

Its a challenge to find that stillness at times with the world around you rushing by at subatomic speeds at times but as I look back now I have come a long way and I will continue to move forward because its what we do but many times it the how we do that might trip us at times. Once we the get the “Whats” situated that “Hows” will find there way.

I am started to understand more and more with each passing moment, that its how we feel about something that is the most important because no one else can give you that. I am learning more and more about the power of emotions as I work to bring my projects and creations into this world.

I have learn a great deal about myself, I am human, I stumble and fall but you know what anything is better that what I have experience up to this point. Not all moment were bad but I know if I want change than I need to follow the flow.

So it has been a very interesting journey these first couple of weeks, but the poetry book is still on. I find the most challenging of this project is that I question my words and whether they will be relevant or not. I also wanted to announce that the first of four contests I have entered are due this Saturday. 😉

Happy April 1st!

Another month has come and gone. I have a couple of things that I wanted to let everyone know that I have entered at least three writing contest. One that is due in three weeks from now, I am keeping my fingers crossed and I will let you know what the results are of that is.

Poetry book is coming along well as I have stopped trying to play caught with the daily prompts and merely added those words I missed to a list to add to the book later. I have a more sure plan for the publication of it.

I am thinking somewhere around December 1, 2017 to stop adding to it and being the editing process. Rough estimation on actually publication date is January 28, 2018, that should give me enough time to put the final touches on the book and I feel comfortable enough to release it to the public.

I have learned more about Instagram, I have posted a few tester pictures and I am slowly getting the hang out which will make it easier for me to post my crafting pieces there. Lastly, I have a patreon page for those interested in funding not only this writing project but also other projects as well as fund my crafting pieces.

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A Tidbit Update

I have been face with physical challenges lately. The month of March hasn’t been my month as I have missed shifts as well as miss my daily writing session. Since this started to feel a bit disconnected, I had to take a few steps back to see the bigger picture. With all that I was doing, I was putting my writing last and that didn’t sit well with me. So I rearranged things so that my writing comes first.

Now that I am recovering from a two day migraine which made me wind in the ER Tuesday, it was one of the worst episodes that I’ve experience but it help put things into perspective from me. After being laid up for two days before heading to the hospital, it helps me to put those things I enjoy first after not being able to do anything at all.

I am still feel so effects of the medicine but I am feeling much better and I know I’ll come stand up stronger then before with a more direction target which will help to keep me on track with not only my writing but also with every other aspect of my life.

Happy March 1st!

I wanted to take this opportunity to take everyone for your likes, comments and for following me. A big shout to you guys and to everyone who has stopped to read my posts, it has given me the encourage to keep moving forward. I have a couple of announcement.

First, at midnight, I have submitted my application to the Ruth Lilly and Dorothy Sargent Rosenberg Poetry Fellowships, submission are open all the way up to April 30th for anyone who is interested in entering. Finalist are announced on Aug 1st and Winners on Sept 1 of this year.

Secondly, I want to let anyone who is interested in supporting this poetry book I am working or future projects, please visit my Patreon. I would greatly appreciate whatever you are willing to give, if you can’t support me financially. Not a problem, you are welcome to follow me on anyone of the social media outlets I have listed on Show Your Support

Psst, just one more thing, I have decided to start a craft shop where I can sell my wears on my Instagram but it will take me a couple of weeks to set that up. I will keep you posted.

Thank you all! Hope everyone will have a wonderful rest of the week.

Not Doing Good

Have to take a much need break today as I find myself feeling a bit under the weather so I won’t be able to post any poems for right. I don’t want to promise tomorrow as I won’t know how I will be feeling then but I am hopeful that I will feel less dizzy than. Keep finger crossed.

Feeling Off

I have been feeling off the for the past few days, its as if changes are about to happen but I am not sure what type of changes are going to be taking place. So with this feelings of overwhelm had to take a couple of steps back to help with the bigger pictures. I’ll mostly likely be back to myself by tomorrow which means I’ll have two prompt post instead of the one.

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